MHL SPRING SUMMER 14
me when I got money: ha! broke ass bitch how the dollar menu taste? I wouldn’t know because it’s Big Macs only around here hoe!!!!
me when I’m broke: capitalism is inhumane and must be put to an end.
I knew I was supressing a lot of stuff. All of my problems and worries. Every single small & big thing that bothered me would be supressed. Because I thought I solved everything, I thought I was finally free from all of the anxiety I had in the past year to the beginning of this year. I didn’t really think about it but it would often appear in my dreams.
Today started out really well, I woke up with enough sleep and told my mom I would help her cook once I get back from class. When I got to school I unexpectedly bumped into a friend I really wanted to see. We talked and talked and it started to remind me about the things I kept worrying about. She had a lot of things going on in her life and everything about her life was interesting to me. This friend, even though she talked about a lot of her problems she was having she’s actually fearless. A straightforward person who can get things done quickly. She’s really outgoing and isn’t scared to talk to anyone and that was what I envied most.
I told her about my problems one of them being how I really missed our high school friends. Because being in college has been really lonely. She said that everyone recently met up with eachother and had a really big party last weekend. Apparently, friends tried to contact me but no one had my new number haha.
Another problem was that I still missed the guy I use to date. And she said “You should’ve went to that Toro y Moi show with him when he invited you, then things wouldn’t have ended up this way”. We both laughed really hard, but I knew everything was a bit more complex than that.
There are other less childish things I want to talk about but those things are too hard to really put into words. So, I’ll leave it for another time.
I said bye to her because I remembered I had to head home to help my mom cook dinner. When I left, that was when I started to break down. Everything I was holding in wanted to pour out. I probably sound immature right now. But sometimes things are not okay but I really wish I can have that positive attitude I portray on here all the time.
Oh and the bus driver who was really mean to me today can go shove something up his ass.
gonna go show off my socks
I’m having a lot of anxiety thinking about how I am turning 21 next month. How does anyone really cope with growing up so fast and transitioning to all of these new things. I hope I’ll be okay lol.
Also, even though fall starts on the 22nd, living in Southern California we have to accept the fact that the weather doesn’t cool down probably until the end of October. That also gives me a lot of anxiety.
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How long do I have to wait until every other post on my dashboard is a pumpkin something-or-other orange thing?
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